Posts tagged self
Posts tagged self
Imagine… If you’re mind never stopped. Imagine a constantly changing swirl of thought and feeling. Like the raging of some endless flood.
Imagine if you could see anything in your mind’s eye with just a thought. Images, motion, things vast and mighty, great battles and violent storms… Or the sun upon towering mountains or the drifting wind across a grassy plane.
All these things and more beyond imagining I see.
Well, yes, self analysis.
Although one must still remember the need for spontaneity and the willingness to take leaps of faith. Again the lesson I learned from Atrus: Balance is the key to life.
However, what I was commenting on was the fact that I find it nearly impossible not to think about things in the world around me. This includes many things that most people are willing to just unplug their brains for, such as movies and television. Often I have been told that I need to think less or that I should just ‘not think about it so much’.
The problem with these suggestions is the idea that it is possible for me to disengage my brain from the input. It is not. At least, not usually. For me to stop thinking requires an interactive activity. A video game, some thing creative or imaginative. Writing, drawing, singing, etc. And in these cases it is not so much that I am not thinking, as much as my thought is absorbed in something else. In video games my mind is absorbed in the mechanics of the gameplay. In creative endeavors my mind is absorbed in the imaginings of whatever I am working on. And so on.
I simply cannot not think. To do so is like trying to stop a raging waterfall. Yes it can be done, but it’s a lot easier to just make use of it.
I find it a lot more stressful to not think about things…
I will admit to trust issues… I use plans and agreements to help ensure that things I wish to happen will, at some point, happen. It’s not so much that I don’t trust others, though, as much as I have no confidence in fate to see things out.
Fate is an old adversary of mine. Fate is cold and dispassionate, playing events out without any concern for what is fair or reasonable. You can’t trust fate, because fate doesn’t care about you. If you live or die, if you stand or fall. Fate doesn’t care, because all that fate does is see to it that the next logical thing is going to happen, and what that entails for you, the person, is entirely outside the realm of fate.
I have no faith in fate, that it will bear fruit that I did not plant myself.